A fresh start(ing line).

I knew that coming off of my running break I was going to want to jump into a new goal as soon as possible. I mean the best way to get over someone is to get under someone…. never mind. That rule doesn’t apply here. Anyways- at some point this winter I had decided on the Providence Half Marathon in May as my next goal. Obviously when shit hit the fan and I needed to recharge my running batteries that wasn’t going to work anymore. But don’t worry, I quickly found a replacement.

This half ass bad ass is officially registered for the Runner’s World Heartbreak Hill Half Marathon on June 8th! I’m happy with this decision because:

1) It’s a brand spankin’ new race… which is fun.
2) It’s put on by Runner’s World (which automatically ups the “cool factor”).
3) It’s part of a weekend long festival celebrating all that is awesome about running.
4) Finishing gives me another sweet medal to add to my wall of pride.
5) This will be not only my second half marathon, but my second half marathon in Newton (ironically)…. which means I get to celebrate with pancakes and a peanut butter shake at the most amazing breakfast joint in the world!

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Providence for some reason just never felt like my race. I couldn’t picture myself running it and now I know why. But this… this has my name all over it. This race feels like mine. I quickly typed in my information, signed my waiver, and hit submit with a little more “ooomf” in my fingers. There was minimal hesitation and instead of the instant gut check associated with registering for big things I felt a sense of dare I say… excitement? I can’t quite put my finger on it but things feel different somehow.


Maybe this is what happens when you take a break. Maybe this is just my brain talking because my legs haven’t seen more than 3 miles in the last 6 weeks. Or maybe it’s these runners I’ve been hanging around recently. (You know who you are). While I was busy giving my legs a rest I paid attention to how they train, how they race, and most importantly… their attitude towards running. Why put in all this effort in training if you’re not going to be excited for the big day? Why spend all this money on a race that you’re not going to put your heart into? I train in fear and I race in fear. From the minute I sign up for a race I start doubting myself. I can’t run races in fear anymore. And while I know this half will be challenging and hard, and that sometimes training for it will suck majorly – at the end of the day I want to be proud of the work I put in and proud of getting myself to the finish line. Maybe… JUST MAYBE… I’m starting to get it. My apologies to those of you who have been repeating this to me until you’re red in the face (Again, you know who you are).

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So 13.1… I’m ready for a rematch. I’m ready to work hard, and listen to those who know best. I realize now that heroes aren’t made on tempo runs when they haven’t eaten breakfast. I realize that the only way I’m going to make it to the finish line is if I start believing in myself. I promise more stretching and less crying. Here’s to training hard and racing happy. Here’s to a fresh start… and a brand spanking new start line. Let’s do this.



About Kathleen

When your legs get tired run with your heart.

Posted on March 18, 2014, in Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 8 Comments.

  1. So freakin awesome!!! Now I’m excited πŸ™‚

  2. So glad to see you’re back in the swing of things – you’re the inspiration I need!!!! xoxo

  3. Yeah for having a race to look forward to!

    I am doing the 10K – I am excited. It is my first 10K race – I am definitely nervous for the hills on the way back. But good practice for me since I spent all last year only running on rail trails.

  4. Congrats on signing up! I did the Runner’s World 10k in Bethlehem PA last year and LOVED it! I thought Runner’s World did an amazing job with everything and it was so well done so I can imagine this one will be as well. I think this race will be a great half for you to get back into! Good luck with training!

  5. Awesome! Good luck with the 10K! I was tempted by the hat trick but I want to do really well in the half so I decided to just stick with that. I know I’m worried about the hills but you gotta run over them at some point!

  6. I choose races based on their proximity to good breakfast joints, too πŸ™‚ I LOVE good food (especially breakfast food and peanut butter) what can I say?
    …I know you didn’t say that’s WHY you chose the race, I’m just projecting my own thought process onto you πŸ™‚

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