From fears… to new goals.
After finishing the Diva Dash (my first race) last September I had numerous people tell me “Just wait- you’ll want to run longer races” And I consistently said “Oh no, I’m happy with just 5Ks. I couldn’t imagine running anything more.”
Well friends I hate to admit it – but you were right. I’m itching for more.
On sort of a “last minute decision” I decided to train for a 10K that’s happening in 5 weeks. While I had already been planning on doing some longer races over the summer, this one came up and I thought “You know what, why not?” After last week’s rant– I know myself well enough that sometimes it’s good for me to focus my energy on something else rather than getting more and more frustrated with what I’m doing. And after 8 5Ks, a part of me is dying to know “Can I run more than 3.1 miles? …I mean, just how far CAN I run if I try?” At this time last year I had just started “running”- and a year later I’m stuck in my safe little bubble of 3.1. It’s time to break out of the comfort zone.
So I’m going to find out just how far I can run. Looking at my calendar now I realize that I MAY have set some pretty high goals for myself this summer (in an 8 week period I have 5 races scheduled including a 10K, 5 miler AND of course… T-DAY) but I’m at this place in my life where I feel if not now- when? I know I arrived semi late to the fitness/running party and am trying to catch up- and therefore I just want to try (tri?) everything. I love this world. I so badly want to be a part of this world. I want to be taken seriously in this world. I love the endorphins. I love the gear. I love the training. The vocab I’m slowly integrating into my life. The “race morning” feeling. The abundance of safety pins. The people who wake up early for the same reasons I do now. The friendships I have found. I love, I love, I love.
And because I love- I will spend this summer running.